"Mom, will you braid my hair?"
"Sure, honey."
And as I'm braiding, I'm thinkin', "Your days are numbered, mama."
My beautiful daughter, my first born, turned eighteen yesterday. Like most moms, I remember the day she was born vividly. They placed her in my arms and I just kept telling my mom, "Mom, I have a baby!" I was so shocked! Ha!
Never did I think I could love so deeply! I found this whole new capacity inside me and it was bigger than I thought possible. She was amazing. Plain and simple, she became my world. For eight years, she was our only child.
Aside from a bout of terrible twos, she was, literally, the perfect child. Oh, I know everyone says that about their kids, but Janie is different. Always has been. She's a gift from God and there's no mistaking it. Why He entrusted us with someone clearly so precious to Him, I will never know. We were bound to mess it up, after all. I suppose, in the end, He knew that we needed her.
Janie has taught me, on more than one occasion, to be a better person. She makes me think. She opens up her soul so easily and shares it so willingly... and that's where God is. I hope that when I grow up, I get to be just like her.
Yeah, my days are numbered. Not too long now and she'll be heading out on her own and building her life. What I wouldn't give to turn back the clock and relive some of those amazing days when she was little again. That's not how it works, tho, and, after all, I get to marvel at the woman she has become. It's not without a tear and more than an ounce of regret, but God helped us raise a true contribution! I could never take credit for who she is, I do so hope, tho, for many more years to come!
I love you, angel baby! xxoo
What a wonderful tribute post to Janie! She IS such an awesome person.
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